I think something we often overlook is God's grace.
When we receive something, even though we've done nothing to deserve it.
The staff let me sit at the head of the table when we share lunch together each day.
If it were for only one day, I would understand – it is because I am a volunteer and a guest, and the only male to sit on the table. But everyday...and I get to eat from a full plate, whilst everyone else eats from their soup bowl. I get a chicken drumstick to go with my rice as well!
What makes me so special? Nothing. I don't deserve this treatment, this generous hospitality.
I owe it all to God's grace...
Why am I popular with the kids? I've done nothing to deserve their love or affection.
Two of the boys actually try to kiss me on the cheek. I asked one of the Tias if it were common for men to kiss each other in Ecuador, and well, the answer is no if you were wondering...
The kindness and care that I receive - I owe it all to God's grace...and I must give thanks to Him.
Angel I think is a special needs child...or a child who pretends like he doesn't need anything.
By his appearance, I'm guessing he has Cerebral Palsy or Downs' Syndrome. I just haven't asked anybody about it yet, because I shouldn't treat him any differently because of it. I think the tias tried explaining it to me – but hey, it was all Spanish to me!
You know how there is always someone who stands out - that one person who requires a little extra grace? Well Angel is that person for me. He'll put dirt in his mouth, refuse to have his shoelaces tied, climb all over you asking to be carried – and when he is in your arms, he'll slap both of your cheeks (not softly, either!) He won't give you his bowl when he's finished with it.
I just don't get it. Totally different from all the other kids. He was throwing gravel at me the other day. Josue then came over and pushed me. Had I been neglecting them? Were they starved of my attention and affections?
It's amazing how children can teach us by their behaviour. I feel Angel is that special person God is using to shape me in this ministry. To test my patience and question how I am treating all the kids.
To be fair and equitable - not to play favourites. To treat each person differently according to his or her own unique needs.
When I struggle, all I can do is pray to God and ask Him to show me some grace...